Over the past few years, my personal life hit a rough patch. I let it most affect another member here, Samot. He sent me what I initially thought was an HK51 build, just after I'd entered divorce proceedings with my wife last August. I didn't even look at it for a few weeks. Then when I finally did, I realized it was a 51k build, something that I just don't have the equipment to build. But instead of just returning it to him, I overpromised, and woefully underdelivered. I'd make some progress, then run into roadblocks with parts that needed to be reworked because I made mistakes machining them or welding them in place. Which would cause a lot of discouragement with myself. Then when asked for progress updates, instead of telling him where it really was at, I'd tell him where I was planning on doing, before it was actually done. And then with all my personal turmoil, I wouldn't even get that done. When asked, I'd just say anything to stall for more time. I wasn't intentionally being this much of an ass, I was intending to finish it. (And we all know what they say about which road is paved with good intentions.) But as I'm no longer working from home, I just don't have the time to devote to do a custom build like a 51k properly.
So it went on way too long, and he finally lost patience. I hope he will one day accept my apology. Part of the reason I've enjoyed my time here on HKPro so much is that I really like helping folks, and want to be appreciated. So it really tears me up that I squandered any chance to come through when I had the chance. I really blew that opportunity, and I'm really sorry for it.
As for myself, I'm obviously not going to try to even attempt any full builds, at least not until I get my atty fees paid off so I can drop back to one full time job and just one part time job.
I guess they're going to let me stay a member here, and hopefully will let me return as a moderator after what will seem like an eternity no matter how long it is.
Oh, and for anyone wondering since not many know about it - yeah, divorce sucks. I didn't sleep more than a few hours at a time for oh, 3 or 4 months. I lost 30 pounds or so, quit flying, quit shooting, quit working out and going to krav maga. Pretty much quit everything. A few close friends and the joy of spending time with my now 5, 7, and 9 year old daughters were about the only things the kept me going. There is some good news - I now get along pretty well with my ex (she lives across the street in the house her parents own but don't live in), and we split parenting time with the girls 50/50 (4 days one week and 3 days the next). Instead of being under-employed, I'm now over-employed. If only I could figure out how to completely eliminate sleep I'd be in really good shape.
So anyways - I hope anyone that I've wronged will accept my sincere apology and forgive me as I try to restore my reputation as my life is gradually getting back together. In the mean time, I'm going to limit myself to only short-term projects like UMP work and trigger pack conversions, and I'll promise to have them back in whatever timeframe you desire.
I'm sure this thread is going to be limited for comment like all feedback threads are, but if you have any questions or comments, feel free to PM my perpetually full mailbox.
